UGH!!!
I did everything right this morning.
Rose
around 8:30 a.m., downed my first two morning medications, sat in the
shade in my backyard sipping coffee, said my morning prayers, and then
meditated with moist compresses on my eyes. Why, I even stood guard and
prevented the dog from pooping in the yard next door!
I
returned back inside and - deciding against my usual carb-heavy
breakfast - chose to eat fruit instead. I then took my other six
morning meds, started my essential oil diffuser, soaked in a tepid bath
filled with epsom salts and essential oils with spa music playing, drank
my low-salt-no-sugar-vitamin-and-electrolyte-water, and stood up.
UGH!
Dizzy. Nauseous. Disgusted.
What
happened to the benefits of being around trees? The sheer goodness of
summer nectarines and strawberries? The detox of epsom salts? The good
karma connected with the dog poop?
All of it down the drain with the bath water.
Could
it have been the second cup of coffee consumed while reveling in the
fresh morning air? The fact that my poor gastritis-ridden stomach
cannot handle the ingestion of eight morning meds with just fruit?
Could it be that I truly need my morning bagel for medicinal purposes?
I
well remember those days long ago; days when, after working long
frantic hours, I would long for a day in bed. Now I can't do enough to
get out of it.
There's always tomorrow I suppose. . .